Hard to keep up with the speed of the mind. Craving stillness. I had so many shiny thoughts to share but it's always easier to write off the page. The page can be a tricky thing. The great ambassador to matters of record. Some thoughts evade permanence, some moments too elusive to capture. Time marches on into infinity. I continue to mine my mind for raw material like a colonial corporate fracking rig. Energy harvesting. Or harnessing. Not sure which is which anymore. Suppose the authority of the page offers its own rewards for undergoing the scrutiny of its crucible. Some deep longing maintains its burning. I sift through blackened ash in hopes of finding some remnant in the smoky air. Life is violent sometimes. Some people wear their chaos on their face. “A man screams obscenities into a fire pit.”
Missed the train again. Now I'm sitting in a park. There are other park-sitters as well. It's really the simple things. Went for a run with a friend today and felt so lucky to be able to do that. I had knee pain but wanted to run anyways. I think about how much of life has been that, pushing through the pain. The first movie I ever saw in theatres was called, “Iron Will”. I've been thinking about that a lot lately. Feels like I have an iron will of my own, my iron will is my inheritance. I see Gerry's face on a book on my shelf with the words, “NEVER GIVE UP”
Continue
give 7 years to it
get your doctorate
while most are building lives around you
you've been mining minds for diamonds writing lines
and trying to brighten shines where you can find them
cloudy hearts are pumped refinement
out of touch with those you dine with
always after it
looking for beginnings when disaster hits
looking at your life and squeezing juice out like there's lime in it
time and time again
it's standing on this sinking ship and pulling out your violin
building space to put the silence in
the fire is lit
blissful in the pyre you sit
never asking why or trying to fit
beauty of the puzzle wisps of tries to match the picture with the pieces
it's a mystery in thesis
soul kinesis
overlooking rainbows reaches
major scale to days of week this plays in sequence
planetary pulls to grains of sand on beaches
fabrics seamless
anything is everything
though everything is anything's to dream this
how to keep this?
speechless
look to child to teach this
peace exists within the wildest features
it's a kind of meekness
blessings of a thousand sneezes
choosing chuckles cheeses
churning laughter in achievements
building books to better view the truth believe this
there's no secrets