It's my brother Seán's birthday today. I bought him a tiocfiadh ár lá vaporwave Bobby Sands shirt and I had to get myself one to match. I hope to wear them together one day. I hope to be able to give him the gift in person, but I'll hold on to it for a little while. I sent him an email earlier in the week with no reply. I sent money to that random guy he is connected to, “Kevin Joseph Adams”. It's weird that he met a stranger with that name, weird doesn't even begin to describe it actually. Synchronicities abound, and I saved the man's name on my banking e-transfer list, as Seán's Holy Guardian Angel. Maybe there is someone looking out for him in the world or in some part beyond what we know of it. Had another strange moment yesterday with the princess of disks, some emails I sent out, and the word opportunity.
Went to drop off belated birthday cards to my cousins Brenna and Deirdre after work. I cut through the Glen Stewart ravine to get down to Queen st. East. I had all these experiences of bliss and profound realizations throughout my walk. Realizing I am right where I need to be, I am already rich beyond my wildest dreams, and I can let go of all my worries and insecurities when I look around and observe where I am and all I have.
A bunch of children playing by a creek bed. Bending over to touch sticks or feel water. Some climb up old roots to reach an embankment where other children mill about. There are two young adults with them. Teenagers even.
Makes me think of wonder.
How lucky those kids were.
How lucky I was.
How lucky I am today.
I treasure this moment in the ravine and think of how many secret places there are like this scattered around the city. Little alcoves of splendour perfectly preserved in their natural state. A juxtaposition of cleansing green and a calm resounding peace nestled between the sounds of car horns, sirens, and machinery. Physical spaces like this, that exist and are observable, and the silent internal oases that we all keep locked away inside our hearts. Both equally important to visit and pay credence to.
Ravine
Rivers run through a city
Keeping secrets, covered corners
Blissful breaks
amidst the chaos
leaks in sometimes
there's an edge you walk on
Grated drain ways
Lots of signage
But the SUN sneaks through
Trickle creeks
sounds of nature bending
stretching
birds and breezes
running downward to the water
It's so peaceful down this way
there's a place where children play
still today
I'll find it chasing everything I missed of summer
Missing you and wanting others,
My ravine beneath the buzzards
My ravine serene with wonder